Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Struggle Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden pain sprang behind my right eye. Then came rapid jolts, like electric shocks. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition typically start with intense discomfort around one eye that lasts up to three hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks typically start with abrupt, excruciating pain focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal cycles; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Still, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing texts propose bizarre remedies for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by global headache societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery which supplies blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He works by ruling out other primary head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough history is essential: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She believes dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.

National guidance on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific medication delivered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of some individuals.

But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined treatment process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent attacks are managed with acute therapy alone. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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